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Hi Friendlies & Pretties.......

Come follow me here on my new page. I've been working hard and creating some organization for my blogging life. Read, enjoy, pin, comment, and love it. I hope you do.


XOXO

Redirecting Energy

THIS is the very reason I'm working hard. I'm not happy with my current figure (although my cute munchkin is worth every extra ounce of fat!) and complaining about it will not solve the problem.

I haven't lost any weight yet but I'm going to kick it's ass! I'm doing all the right things and I'm just waiting for my body to get the memo. I took out all the clothes in my closet that aren't fitting (can't have any sausage-linkage or muffin top now, can we?) and I cried like I was having a funeral for my closet. It was quite pathetic. In my defense, there were 3 shirts (+ 2 nursing tanks) and 1 pair of jeans left. Ew. My lover witnessed this horriffic meltdown and he took me to get some clothes today. With a few great options and variety, it's amazing how much better I feel (and look)! Btw- Maurices Taylor-Boot Cut are the best jeans ever made for new mommies ($29!-can't beat that!).


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XOXO

Sleepy Baby

I break the rules. Ryker breaks the rules. Rules are made to be broken anyways, right? I know the SIDS lecture. However, this makes my baby happy. He LOVES his tummy. I love that he's 6 weeks old, almost sleeps through the night (5 hours) and I lay him in his crib and he goes right to sleep. He doesn't cry much unless he needs his belly topped off. I just love him. And he smiles now- which melts my heart.

Baby Pounds

Seriously. I've been busting my ASS for the past 4 weeks and I haven't lost a single pound. I have worked out 6 days a week (even while out of town!) and eating clean without a single pound change. WTF. People have said "well it's only been six weeks since you gave birth..." So what. I've been busting my ass for four weeks.  It's frustrating to be stuck. My thyroid did test out normal.

- I drink a gallon and a half of water every day.
- I eat really high protein and clean. Nothing processed. No fast food. No frozen-premade crap.
- I take amazing vitamins every day.
- I work out- even with weights, circuit training, and cardio 6 days a week.

Just stuck. Hmmm. Suggestions, anyone??
I'm trying to lose the weight without Bio Life Slim this time. But I just might cave and buy liquid gold to jump start these stubborn pounds. I lost 80lbs three yeas ago using Bio Life Slim. I did get the go-ahead from my dr that it's safe to use while breastfeeding. However, I don't need to lose 80lbs this time. Just 30lbs and I'd be happy.

Those were the days....

.....of peeing alone
....showering whenever I wanted
....date nights
....being skinny
...."cuddling" didn't mean holding pinkies because of a baby taking up space in between us
....dinners out with friends
.....sleeping in meant 2pm on a weekend instead of 2am daily
....family was excited to see YOU, not just the baby
....laundry once a week instead of daily
....a warm, hot, fresh meal
.....lots of sexy time...lots.
.....pretty hair, fresh makeup, newly painted nails

Those were the days when life was simple.
And THESE are the days of happiness, zomie-status, full of love and sleep deprivation.

Fast forward to 3 weeks

Week One: I was nervous to be discharged from the hospital. There is currently a huge fire just a few miles from my home. Families are even evacuating... Little stressful but our neighborhood is okay for now. So far Ryker has slept great--well every 2 hours; just like a newborn. My boobs are so huge. I thought about posting a picture but I won't. I sure love my huge perky ouchie boobs!

Week Two: Ryker hates me. He was curcumsized (I was in the room)..... He did so good. He didn't cry during the worst part of it. But he sure screamed as loud as he could once the doctor started talking to him. He has been screaming almost non-stop. He's pissed, in pain, and he spits up or spits out his medicine. I guess he's being "man" about this whole business. And hello gassy baby! He likes to be awake from 12am-4:40am. I'm a tired mama! He cries and squirms with those gas bubbles. Gas drops seem to help a little. Poor little baby. I also wonder how those super moms do everything. How the hell do you take care of baby/family all day, nap, cook, clean, workout, laundry, shower, pee, cook dinner, stay up all night, and then repeat? Somedays I feel like I'm failing. Jason has been doing laundry and dinner lately but I know it can't be that way forever. I think he does it mostly because he feels bad that I'm up all night with baby. ... It gets better, right?

Week Three: Ryker's shit barrel fires like a machine gun. Just when you think he's done, you can hurry and change him and just before securing the new diaper he reloads and shoots some more all over his blankets, my bed, and my clothes. Just today I've been peed on and shit on, my boobs leaked bad all over my bed, and spit up in my hair! Oh and don't forget about my furry beast legs!   Jason came home for a quick meal before finishing his work day. Ryker was still sleeping. I made a run for it! I showered. A long hot one! I even shaved, deep conditioned my hair, stood in hot water. It was amazing. Got out....baby still sleeping... I cleaned the kitchen, started the dishwasher, and 2 loads of laundry and made dinner! I don't feel like such a loser now. Oh and right as Jason came home, Ryker woke up and we had a blow out! He blew through his clothes, blanket, my 2 pillowcases, and my pillow. Yuck. I'm getting new pillows tomorrow. Yep--this is the life.... Lol I am sure I earned that mommy badge today! Gone are those days when I could shower at any moment....But this precious baby is so worth it.

The Rest of My Story

The rest of the story...... about giving birth- I tore just a tiny bit. Only a couple stitches. And it was on my scar from my episiotomy before. Straight line tiny tear-all on the inside nothing on the outside. Yessssss!!! We also did encapsulate my placenta. Yep, that's right. Gross, right? Well- holy milk supply and I feel energized and rested instead of walking zombie status. I don't taste it or anything- it's a pill. I would so do it again. It was worth the $200. And bleeding is pretty much gone, already. Worth it-- I tell you! And the lady who did it for me, made the umbilical cord into a heart for a keepsake. Really cool!

It was amazing to have control over my body, no IV (well, not longer than 10 minutes), to be up and about including a shower right after, and discharged the very next morning. I would do it again. 2 days postpartum- Jason, Ryker, and I were out of the house celebrating with lunch, errands, and picking up those random little things we needed. And a little side-sleeper bed ($30) because Ryker refused to sleep in the $150 bassinet. We have a house FULL of sleepers! It's awesome. Go ahead- hate me. And less than a week later, I was able to get my single-digit jeans on! YEAH!!!!!!!! So happy about that! 

My amazing doula, Carrie Valadez & I. 

1 Week exactly today, I gave birth and became a mommy again. I love my life. I love my family.

And I'm living the baby-moon still. 

I didn't know my heart could hold SO much love.